1st Trimester: Weeks 4-12

So this is my 6th pregnancy (3rd successful pregnancy) and since it may be my last I want to document what I can. So here we go!

When/How I found out:
I found out around 5 weeks that I was pregnant by a store bought pregnancy test. We were not planning to get pregnant around this time but I had felt a bit off and just had a feeling. Although I felt off, I figured I was probably not pregnant and my body was still regulating as I was only about 8 months postpartum.

My initial reaction:
I hate to admit but honestly my initial reaction was shock and then tears. I cried because I felt like I had just been pregnant and I didn't know if I was ready to go through the whole process again. Transitioning from one to two children had been hard on us as a family and the thought of three at the moment seemed so overwhelming. I have also had previous miscarriages so the 1st trimester of pregnancy is always a ball of stress for me. I hadn't been taking the best care of myself and I feared that that may lead to an early miscarriage. I was just a mix of emotions.

Symptoms:
Around 6 weeks I started to feel the tiredness and nausea. I felt extremely tired this time around but it also might have been the fact that Andrew did not always sleep through the night and was still so dependent on me for care. The nausea (without vomiting) came and went throughout the day. The constant hunger pains I felt didn't help my nausea. I had that whole cycle of being nauseous because I was hungry but not being able to eat because I was nauseous. I also struggled with a bad taste in my mouth and the urge to gag randomly. It was a struggle but it honestly was not as bad as my pregnancy with Andrew.

Cravings:
I didn't really have cravings in the first trimester but I do remember my go to snack was goldfish crackers lol.

Baby's Sex:
I didn't know at this point yet. But my intuition was saying a girl!

Sleep:
I had a few days of insomnia here and there but nothing like my other two pregnancies. I did have some rough nights though because Andrew was not always sleeping through the night at this point.

Showing yet?
I thought I was although I'm pretty sure I just looked bloated to most people. I definitely saw my belly pop a lot sooner this time than previous pregnancies.

Happy or Moody?
I was definitely moody during the first trimester. I struggled with depression the first few months. It was hard to feel tired and nauseous and not be able to rest. And it was hard for me to be okay with letting go of my normal household duties. Ryan did so much but even so he could only do so much because he works full time.

Looking forward to:
At this point I was looking forward to my morning sickness subsiding, getting my energy back, and finding out whether we were having a girl or boy! Honestly I didn't care either way if we were having a girl or a boy but it's just always an exciting surprise when you find out :)

Updates

I hate that I don't use this space as much as I would like. I miss the blogging days, typing out my thoughts and reading other’s thoughts. I enjoy Instagram but miss the substance that blogs had. It seems Instagram is becoming more about appearances and ads. Anyways, lots of changes have occurred since my last post on here. I feel like this is always the case with the space between my posts. Well, I am pregnant! This will more than likely be my last pregnancy which has me feeling mixed feelings. But I’m trying to enjoy every moment of this pregnancy now that I am feeling more myself. I hope to do some posts about my pregnancy so I can look back on them. We shall see if I can make time to do so the next 5 months. Also my big boy Nate turned 4 years old! And my baby boy Andrew turned 1! Slow down time! I need more time to enjoy my kids as they are now, they are growing too fast! I need to document my thoughts about parenthood as well. Although this time in my life can be lonely at times and I feel like I get no time to myself I am so so grateful I get to be home with my kids. This was my dream! And I’m living it! It’s so easy to get caught up in how mundane the daily routine can be each day and how overwhelmed I can feel. But I know this time is short and I will miss it dearly one day.

Halfway through 2018 already! How!? I was reading my last post and thinking about how I held up on living more simple yet intentional. I think I’ve done okay so far. I did clear out a lot of things before Andrew was born and more when we had our hardwood floors refinished. But there is still so much stuff I have to go through and rid of in our garage. But I think I’ve made progress. In terms of living a more intentional life I think I can do better. I feel this year has been tough on me. The postpartum period is a journey for me and even 8 months out I feel my hormones going up and down.  I’m hoping it’ll get better. I do need to treat my body better. I haven’t been drinking enough water or eating as healthy as I should. I definitely feel different after Andrew was born. I wake up everyday with my body aching which I’ve never experienced prior to his birth. I may be deficient in certain vitamins and nutrients. I think once I feel better I can focus more on my life goals. Right now my life goals are taking care of myself so I can better take care of my children and family.

New Years Goals

This year I want to live intentionally. I plan to declutter my home and only have what we use and need. Each day so far I’ve been clearing out an area of the house. One day it was my dresser and closet, the next it was my kitchen cabinets, you get the idea. I’m trying to do a little each day so I don’t get overwhelmed, and well because that’s all I can really manage with a 2 month old and a toddler. Other goals include eating better. I’m trying to stick to weekly meal plans and incorporating more veggies because, well, I’m a slacker when it comes to eating more veggies. Self care is also important to me this year and really for the rest of my life. I’m terrible at it and need to make it a priority. And last I want to read. I read maybe...two books last year?  That’s terrible. I really need to make time to read a new book each month at least. Too many times I’m caught up mindlessly scrolling through my phone.

Well those are my New Years resolutions for 2018. More importantly these are life long goals for myself to keep. Hopefully. That’s the goal. 

2018

I can’t believe that I only did two posts in 2017. Wow. I had every intention of writing but in all honestly I wasn’t in the headspace to write on here. I had morning sickness in the first trimester of my pregnancy, I was taking care of a very strong willed toddler, and then dealing with a very uncomfortable and even painful at times third trimester. Then in November our sweet little Andrew was born. Although he’s the sweetest baby going from being parent to one child to two children was a huge adjustment. Handling two kids with two different schedules and different needs is hard to manage in itself but then add in the fact that Nate regressed in every way possible: potty accident after potty accident when he was already potty trained for months, whining over everything, acting out for attention, copying baby, etc. And then add in recovering from labor and delivery and just trying to take care of my basic needs (eat, sleep, use the restroom). So yeah 2017 was a year full of change and adjusting to all the change. And now here we are again in a new year! I’m SO excited for this year. I don’t know what it is about this year but I feel so motivated. More so than previous years! I’ll probably write a list of my goals in another entry. But all my goals basically result in me simplifying my life. I plan to write more on this blog and hopefully about the changes I make to reach my goals this year.

Here’s to 2018!