32 Weeks!? Whaaattt!?

This pregnancy has been a blur. It has seriously flown by and I find myself trying to remember how far along I am when people ask. Lol. It's so different the second time around. I guess with a toddler running around I just don't have the time to count down each week like I did the first time around. Plus the first time everything is so new and exciting. Don't get me wrong, I am very much excited for this baby boy.

As of lately I have been nesting but it is hard because I feel physically limited to what I can do. That is quite frustrating to me. I also think the 3rd trimester tiredness has arrived. I find myself quite tired and in need of a nap around noon.

So far I have a lot of things of Nate's that I will be reusing for baby. But still I do not feel ready for baby yet. I need to get some items and wash all the baby clothes and cloth diapers. I will probably do that a few weeks before my due date. So crazy to think I will have a newborn baby again. I am so used to the toddler phase it's crazy to think about.

Anywho, will try to update more on here. It's hard for me to remember to do so. And I feel like I waste so much time watching tv and scrolling through my facebook/instagram feeds on my free time instead of reading and writing :( I need to be more intentional with my time. I will have less of it in a month or so...

2017

I can't believe the last time I wrote on this blog was 2016! A lot has happened so far and there are some upcoming changes this year :)

We are expecting our 2nd child, another little boy! I am so excited and feel so thankful for this healthy pregnancy. Those close to us know that my journey to motherhood has not been an easy one. I've had an ectopic pregnancy and miscarriage prior to having my son. And last year I another miscarriage. I struggled so much when dealing with those losses. And I still carry them with me, but I am just so grateful for this rainbow baby I carry.

2017 I am so excited for my growing family!

December

December is here and Christmas is near. Just less than two weeks till Christmas Day!!! I am very excited to see my family on Christmas Eve. My mom, abuelita, brother and his fiance will be coming to my house that day. And my abuelita is going to show me how to make her albondigas soup. It is seriously the BEST soup! Just thinking about us all being together brings back memories of childhood of when the family would all get together on Christmas Eve. We would always eat a yummy Christmas dinner and wait till midnight to open presents. It was always so much fun to be around all my tias and tios and primos. All us kids would play together till midnight. I remember how long the wait felt. I remember just counting down the days till Christmas Day felt like forever. Funny how once you become an adult time just flies by. And now I wish the days would just slow down so I can enjoy every moment with Nate. Anywho, I am very excited to celebrate this Christmas with him. I feel like he will understand so much more this year. It'll be so much fun seeing him open his presents and see his new toys. And also just having him surrounded by family. I want him to grow up and think back on his childhood memories of Christmas with so much joy as I do of mine. That would make me sooo happy.

Emotional Lately

Lately I have been getting so emotional as I look at Nate through out the day. We will be sitting at the table eating and I just look at him in disbelief at how much he's grown. I wish I had decided to quit my job sooner because I feel like I have missed so much with Nate already. He is so big now that I can see he needs more independence and time with other kids. I hope that with our next child (whenever that may be) I can be home with them from the beginning. I also pray that God brings some mommy friends into my life. Life can be pretty lonely these days. I just want to be able to live a simple life. I don't need much in my life but my family, a few quality friends and roof over my head.

Random Thoughts

I was just thinking of naming this blog Random Thoughts of Lis instead of Lovely Thoughts of Lis. I have no idea what I intend to write about on this blog. It used to be so easy for me to write about my life on my tumblr. I guess I didn't think much about what I wrote back then, I just wrote. I guess I should start doing the same now. Just write. I think I am currently in a weird place in my life.  I feel as though I am on the backburner in my own life. Right now Ryan has work full time and school in the evenings. On top of that he is traveling a lot for work so I am the primary caretaker of Nate weekdays. I am so thankful that I am home with Nate because if I was also working full time I think I would be so stressed. But at the same time I don't get much "me time" out of the house. And I feel like I don't have many or really any "mom friends". Not to mention I have to be creative with what I do as we are now living on one income and don't have extra money to spend. It is a challenge. On top of it all my son, Nate, is such a strong willed and energetic little boy. He is stubborn and can test my patience like no other. Parenting is the most challenging thing I have come across in my life. It can suck the life out of you and at the same time fill your life with so much joy. You are tested constantly but always rewarded in some way. It is like nothing else in this life. I am grateful I get to experience parenthood. I just hope that I figure out how to give more quality time to myself. I need to take better care of myself so I am ready for whatever comes my way with Nate each day.